I'll never capitalize cancer

I have alot going on in my life, more than just cancer and chemo. Sure it's a big part of my life right now, but it's not the most important part of my life. You will never see me spell it with a capital "c".

I'm a Wife and Mom. I love my Family. I have good Friends. We do fun stuff and dumb stuff and sometimes we argue and then we laugh again. We go to work and to the grocery store and we go swimming and have birthday parties and get ready for the first day of school.

I keep saying that I don't want ovarian cancer to define me, but sometimes I just can't help it.

A good friend put it this way for me "cancer may be defining your life for the moment, but it is not your entire life. You seem to just make time for it." That made me feel better.

If you want to see it from the beginning, my cancer story begins in March.

The rest of my story is happening now.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Commit2Fit Day 21

Saturday - we just kinda hung out in bed this morning, watching cartoons and playing with Barbies.

The day started late so I did not have time to get all of my meals in. Sure got all the calories though! Blame it on the pizza for lunch. I only had one piece! And the Ranch dressing - it really makes a difference when you log it all in and see the whole day's worth of calories and fat and sugar laid out like it is in My Food Diary. Lots of salt, too. I drank all my water, 12 cups.

I experimented with making some cookies this afternoon. Hoping for a more healthy snack, I used a box of cake mix, an Advocare Meal Replacement Shake, 2 eggs, 1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce, 3 tbs water and baked them in a 350 oven for 10-12 minutes. They taste pretty good, have less fat and more fiber & protein than other cookies but I still have to be careful not to eat too many.

When I started with the Advocare Metabolic Nutrition System, I thought I wanted the Max Energy. But since I cut back on carhs (really, it was worse) and caffeine and eat more protein and fiber, I think my energy is fine. After looking at my eating habits, I think I really need the Max Appetite to keep my sugar cravings under control. I can take Thermo Plus whenever I need an extra boost to my metabolism. And I will consider Carb Ease.

As I read over this post again, I realize that I need to change more than my supplements. I still believe they are important - I mean, I have cut back my food intake, which cuts my calories (energy) and nutrition. So I still need a good Multi vitamin, Omegas, Probiotics, and metabolic regulators.

But I really need to adjust my groceries, too. Even brown rice and whole wheat pasta.

Hmm, this is going to take some thinking.

Tomorrow we begin Commit2Fit Life Habit 4 - do not eat right before bedtime to be sure to be in the fat burning mode.

That's pretty much common sense, but how many of us really do it? How much time should I leave in there between eating and goimg t sleep? What are the benefits? Those are the details that we find out at the Commit2Fit meetings. Or you can email me for more info.

I came across a really good explanation on why this is so important. I will share it in tomorrow's post.