I'll never capitalize cancer

I have alot going on in my life, more than just cancer and chemo. Sure it's a big part of my life right now, but it's not the most important part of my life. You will never see me spell it with a capital "c".

I'm a Wife and Mom. I love my Family. I have good Friends. We do fun stuff and dumb stuff and sometimes we argue and then we laugh again. We go to work and to the grocery store and we go swimming and have birthday parties and get ready for the first day of school.

I keep saying that I don't want ovarian cancer to define me, but sometimes I just can't help it.

A good friend put it this way for me "cancer may be defining your life for the moment, but it is not your entire life. You seem to just make time for it." That made me feel better.

If you want to see it from the beginning, my cancer story begins in March.

The rest of my story is happening now.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Things I learned about myself while visiting my Family

I made a trip to Dallas this past weekend to visit my family. Some things I already knew. Like, that I don't leave on time for trips. Actually, I am pretty much late for everything. I know it, I think everyone who knows me knows it. We usually plan on it. I planned on leaving Beaumont at 9AM and if I got out by Noon I would be happy.

At 1030AM I headed out. Made it about a block down the road and heard a terrible noise. A flat? I just got 2 new tires! But the tire looked fine except that it was kinda splayed out. Hmm, maybe I lost some lugnuts. So I called Joe at Joe's Tires on College and he came out to check on it (one of the benefits of living in a small town). Nope - Everything's fine. Except for the busted ball joint.

So much for getting out of town by Noon.

Thanks to Two Amigos my car would be fixed, but it wouldn't be till the next day - they had to order the part. So we layed around the pool until Brian got off work & I took his car to Dallas.

Here's what I learned:
I prefer driving at night. I really like to be around my Family and familiar things. That includes the Downtown Dallas skyline. I've gotten used to driving 65 MPH, especially since I see how much gas I save. I'd like to learn more about Asian cooking so that I could make sense of the Oriental Grocery store. I don't have as much patience as I used to have. But I still can be flexible. I wish I was a better photographer. I miss not having a good wireless internet connection. It is impossible for me to go to IKEA just to look at one specific item and leave without buying anything.

There may be a few other things that I learned, but I probably should keep them to myself.